The Things I Do for Love

Deeper and Deeper is the recent poem about my life. Yep, my poetic muse only comes when I'm sad, weird as it may seem. Hahaha ~ Blogs for happy days and poems for melancholic ones. It's a very nice tandem, don't you think? An opposite of sorts.  But what do you do when things don't go your way? Things just get worse. Circumstances are out of your control. You cannot make your dreams come true. Your friends are out there successful with their lives and here you are being a loser, with nothing to be proud of. So what is this stage of life? Oh, welcome to rock bottom! Sometimes I think that the greater scheme of things are all in order, except me. I think I'm misplaced, feeling so vulnerable as I sink deeper and deeper to the uncontrollable tide of fate. At this point in time, it is difficult to be cheerful at all. (T_T) But you know, things happen for a reason, they all say. In order to get out of rock bottom, you either don't stop climbing or somebody will

So far this year, I have not yet attended any convention about toys, gaming, cosplay, or anything else. My circumstances has turned me into a hermit, doing nothing but eat-sleep-work. Can I say I have turned into a zombie now? (T_T) I miss going to events, you know. Where can I buy time for it? Waaaa ~ Fortunately, my ever supportive boyfie went to STGCC last weekend in Marina Bay Sands. He shared the photos he took with me. And I felt so alive at seeing nerdy stuff again! Yay~ Finally, a world where I belong! Uhm.. he only took photos of the toys, though. Sorry guys, he is not a blogger like me. :P No booths, cosplayers, guests. Hahaha... But they're all good just the same. So let me share them with you, too. My favorite ones are the Star Wars toys. Yep~ I literally gasped for joy when I saw the cool figurines of the different aircrafts and the cute chibi toys and ~woah~ Rey on her speeder! Yep, Star Wars fan here!    The X-Wing, The TIE Fighter, and the rest of the aircra

Deeper and deeper, I sink To this rock bottom of endless abyss.  In the darkness, my tears abound... Of hopeless wails  And painful cries Not knowing when, Not know how, Not knowing if... I can save myself. The deeper I stay. The deeper I sink. This rock bottom. This abyss.  - Angel Mariel; Sept. 12, 2016