Rock Bottom

Deeper and Deeper is the recent poem about my life. Yep, my poetic muse only comes when I'm sad, weird as it may seem. Hahaha~ Blogs for happy days and poems for melancholic ones. It's a very nice tandem, don't you think? An opposite of sorts. 

But what do you do when things don't go your way? Things just get worse. Circumstances are out of your control. You cannot make your dreams come true. Your friends are out there successful with their lives and here you are being a loser, with nothing to be proud of. So what is this stage of life? Oh, welcome to rock bottom!

Sometimes I think that the greater scheme of things are all in order, except me. I think I'm misplaced, feeling so vulnerable as I sink deeper and deeper to the uncontrollable tide of fate. At this point in time, it is difficult to be cheerful at all. (T_T)

But you know, things happen for a reason, they all say. In order to get out of rock bottom, you either don't stop climbing or somebody will help you... or both. Just so, I came upon a significant quote about rock bottom that encouraged me to keep calm and just continue on. 

I guess this stage of life is a requirement to get where you want to be. It's like a step on a ladder to your destination. A lot of people I admire also went through the toughest times before achieving the peak of glory, like Rain, or Nikola Tesla, or yes, JK Rowling. So I guess I can say, rock bottom is something all of us experience at some point in our lives. 

The trick is, just live it, experience it, and hope that eventually, you will get out of there. For me unfortunately, I don't know how long I would have to stay in my rock bottom. So for now, here's another quote I live by, also from one my favorite authors...

"Never give up. When your heart becomes tired, just walk with your legs --but move on"

-Paulo Coelho, The Pilgrimage

So, smile, dearies! (^_^)v

STGCC 2016 Toys

So far this year, I have not yet attended any convention about toys, gaming, cosplay, or anything else. My circumstances has turned me into a hermit, doing nothing but eat-sleep-work. Can I say I have turned into a zombie now? (T_T) I miss going to events, you know. Where can I buy time for it? Waaaa~

Fortunately, my ever supportive boyfie went to STGCC last weekend in Marina Bay Sands. He shared the photos he took with me. And I felt so alive at seeing nerdy stuff again! Yay~ Finally, a world where I belong! Uhm.. he only took photos of the toys, though. Sorry guys, he is not a blogger like me. :P No booths, cosplayers, guests. Hahaha... But they're all good just the same. So let me share them with you, too.

My favorite ones are the Star Wars toys. Yep~ I literally gasped for joy when I saw the cool figurines of the different aircrafts and the cute chibi toys and ~woah~ Rey on her speeder! Yep, Star Wars fan here! 

 

The X-Wing, The TIE Fighter, and the rest of the aircrafts

The Millennium Falcon stands out

C-3PO and Stormtroopers :D Cutie

Darth Vader and more Stormtroopers

Ooooh~

Rey on her Speeder

 Aside from Star Wars, I also like X-Men. I used to follow the animated series back in the 90's and I watched the movie franchises, too. Here is one of the STGCC X-Men diorama on display. This depicts the X-Men battling the Sentinel from XM Studios. It is 2x1x1.5 meters wide and features Colossus, Jubilee, Cable, Beast, Psylocke, and of course, the villain Sentinel.

The X-Men battling the Sentinel figurine...

...featuring Beast, Jubilee, and Colossus in this angle...

...and Cable...

...and Psylocke

So Star Wars and X-Men... but of course, there's Marvel, too. I only became a Marvel fan after the Captain America movies. *wink*Chris Evans* And I do believe that Marvel studios create great movies. Yippee~

I still can't get over Captain America: Civil War

Iron Man!

Mark 39 Iron Man suit

Pepper Potts in Iron Man costume

Black Panther and Iron Fist from Marvel Universe

The Sinister 6: Lizardman, Mysterio, and Vulture

Kraven at the center

Front view of Sandman and Electro

Hmmm... Wait, I wonder why there's no Captain America display... maybe boyfie missed it on purpose... :P

Those were great toys, but my boyfriend's favorites are the Nariko and Witchblade figurines. Yep, the craftsmanship are awesome. Look at all those details!

Nariko from the video game Heavenly Sword

Witchblade figurine

Witchblade figurine

Here are the other toys that he took photos of...

from Transformers

Jackie Estacado from The Darkness

Crow King from Bounties of Bathos

Seeing all this figurines has rejuvenated me again. I hope I will get more time in the future to attend cons like he has. I wish I can go to STGCC next year, too. It would be nice to see all these toys for real, don’t you think?

After everything, I realize that I need to power up my nerd influence from time to time. It is needed to keep yourself sane in this world. So, when is the next event?

Deeper and Deeper

Deeper and deeper,

I sink

To this rock bottom

of endless abyss.

 In the darkness,

my tears abound...

Of hopeless wails 

And painful cries

Not knowing when,

Not know how,

Not knowing if...

I can save myself.

The deeper I stay.

The deeper I sink.

This rock bottom.

This abyss.

 -Angel Mariel; Sept. 12, 2016